When this was penned I had been walking with Christ for about 3 months and sober for about the same. The following entry was written about mid November 2007.
” The thought process defines a large portion of who we are. When faced with a choice this truth becomes most evident and a decision must be made. ‘Do I choose right or wrong?’ This is the point at which our moral values are tested and our integrity is either strengthened or weakened. If I choose what is right, just and good then I gain within myself a little more faith, some spiritual peace and some inner strength. If I willingly choose the wrong path, I run the risk of jeopardizing all the recovery I have worked so hard to obtain. If I choose poorly, the next choice comes into play. ‘Do I get sober again or try to justify my wrong doing?’
I choose to remain in recovery, to passionately hold my sobriety and to embrace serenity.”
When I re-read these journal entries now I recall the struggle going on within myself. I was determined to stay clean and sober. Each day I felt better about being off drugs and alcohol. And it all revolved around the decision to let God rule my life, accept the forgiveness that only comes through Christ and to live my newfound life free of addictions.
To paraphrase, it’s like this. You have been convicted in a court of law for every sin you have ever done. The verdict is guilty! The sentence for your crimes, DEATH! You are strapped to the table with IVs in you arms and the lethal injection is flowing. Just before the fatal combination of drugs reaches you body, God’s only son, Jesus Christ steps in and says, “Hold it, I will take the punishment for him/her.” They stop the mortal drug IV, take you off the table and strap Christ back down in you place. As the toxic injection reaches Jesus’ arm, the judge says to you, ” Since this man has taken your place I declare you adjudicated of all crimes. You are free to go.”
It’s that easy. If you will honestly ask God to forgive you of your sins, confess Christ Jesus as your Lord and Savior and receive the atonement that Jesus Christ gave his life for you for the forgiveness of your sins you will be saved. God loves you more than anything and wants to offer you eternal life with Him and a life here on earth free of drugs, alcohol, pornography and all other addictions!
If you have just accepted Christ into your life please seek out a church, pastor or Christian counselor that can help you along your newfound road. Sobriety is a new journey for some of us and we need all the direction we can get!
If you don’t know where to turn please leave me a comment and I will direct you in the right direction!
God bless each and every one of you who share this struggle and my prayer for you is to accept Christ into you heart and your continued sobriety!